It's week ten and I am crashing!!!
To say I am discouraged would be a gross understatement. I followed my plan more closely last week than I have since we started, and I exercised 5 days out of the week (30 minutes each day). So could someone please tell me how in the world I GAINED A POUND???
Sisters and friends I need your prayers. I can't remember the last time I had THIS MUCH difficulty getting the weight off. It's like I am taking one step forward and two steps back for some reason. Initially I had commitment issues, but I have been much more intentional and focused lately. I just don't get it!! Does anyone have any helpful suggestions??
I am drinking water like a fish, and taking a multi-vitamin. I haven't been writing things down like I should (still can't get myself back into that "groove") but I know that my choices have been much healthier than earlier in the summer, and I have been limiting portions.
I was hoping to have at least shed a pound or two, but no such luck.
I am trying to stay focused, but it is so hard! I just want to throw my hands up in the air and quit! But I know I can't do that, because that is what the enemy wants. Interestingly, I read this excerpt from He Speaks To Me by Priscilla Shirer yesterday. I think God was preparing me in advance for this morning's scale tale. The following passage from chapter nine (page 101) is based on these verses of scripture.
"Running to win means dying to the flesh by not letting sin reign in your body (Romans 6:12). As Christians, we have a responsibility to die to the flesh daily, to let go of these things that distracts us from our relationship with the Lord. For me, gluttony is a sin that is a constant struggle".
As I read those words I spoke aloud, "Amen Sistah!! I feel your pain!" She went on to say...
"God has dealt with me on this. Every day I must die to my desire to eat more than I need. I am not always successful, but I know that denying myself the extra helpings will ultimately make me a better example of how God's children should live. As I get more into the habit of sacrificing my selfish desires in this area, it becomes easier. But I suspect gluttony will always be a problem for me.
You may not identify with my particular temptation, but unless you are chiseled from granite, you have to deal with your own. What sins do you have to crucify daily? It helps to call them by the same name the Bible does. Notice I didn't say that I have a healthy appetite; I said I have a problem with gluttony. Just like me, you need to know what tempts you to sin and be intentional about dealing with it".
Father I humbly approach your throne of grace now, asking you to gird me up with your strength and power. I confess to you that I cannot win this race on my own. I can't even run it without you. Thank you father for the words of encouragement and inspiration that you have imparted to me through Priscilla's book and help me God to apply this teaching to my life. Your word tells me that I need to "purify myself from everything that contaminates my body and my spirit" and that I am to put away anything that distracts me from knowing you and your will for my life. Lord, I want to be healthy. I want to be holy; set apart for your use. I want this for me, and my testimony...but ultimately I want it for YOUR GLORY! I am your willing vessel. Mold me, shape me and guide me now in the paths that I should take, and strengthen me for the journey. Amen!